#843 Self Control Under A Microscope

Experiment from the lab: I had to bite my tongue until I’m pretty sure it was bleeding. It has been a long time since someone (outside my manfriend(I’m too old to have a boyfriend) ☺️) has rocked my emotions to the point where I was left dumbfounded, infuriated, and ready to fight! The sensations in my body were raging hot, things were a little blurry, my motions were slow and methodical because I was just simply trying to figure out what just happened. You see, I’m not and over reactor. And on this day not one but two people, one after the other (an adult woman and her father) largely overreacted to something I had no control over and directed their anger at me.

It caught me completely off guard.

What do we do when this happens???

It took me the better part of an hour to calm myself down. I guess what happens when you live in a world where people support you, where people are understanding, where people are kind and calm, when someone acts contradictory to that, it rocks your world!!!!

At first I labeled it as rage, but I really think that deep down I was hurt. Hurt to think that someone out there viewed me negatively... and they don’t even know me. I’m a good person in general, I think. Far from perfect, but good. And your a good person too!

What I want to pass on is that someday someone will come along and test you like this. To see if you’re genuine. To see if you act with integrity. To see if you can walk the talk. Can you? Will you?

Maybe she had a bad morning, maybe she didn’t get any sleep, or maybe not enough coffee (that can throw the best of us!) but whatever the case, I waked away, head held high and balled my eyes out once I was miles down the road. ☺️ but I’m ok with that.

May you be kind in all your actions this week, walk your talk and be a support. Look out for these little tests that come your way! Trust me, they sneak up on you! Be prepared and don’t let yourself down!