Shake It Off

Let it go! Let it go!!! Haha sorry, it was stuck in my head now you have to suffer with me ☺️ anyway. Remember when I mentioned that little thing called control that I struggle with??? Well that little devil has been rearing its ugly head since Saturday and I am so over it!!!! Now that I’ve had myself a good little release cry that is.

You see, when things start to amp up. When more and more and more starts to pile up on my plate, my natural instinct is to put more control and structure around it to make it feel more stable. Except guess what??? The rest of the world doesn’t give a rats butt about what I’m over here white knuckling and trying to control! Nope no one!

And when that happens, when not everyone in my world works around my perfectly orchestrated schedule, it throws me for a total and utter loop. And today it looped around every 5 mins it seemed.

And this has been happening for days! At this point, it’s a bit of a downward spiral and I have to get myself out of this mindset! Who the hell do I think I am that everything should go as I say? I found myself driving home, teary eyed, with my to do list on repeat in my head feeling totally overwhelmed. Finally it dawned on me that I had to switch my thought pattern!! I switched to “it’s going to be ok. I can do this. It’s not as much as you think it is.” Positive self talk, all day, everyday. Can turn a sinking ship into a Caribbean Cruise!

Tomorrow, I will try again. Tomorrow I will let things happen as they happen. Tomorrow, I should shut my damn phone off!!! Tomorrow will be better!